Congratulations
big sis big day
Tahniah for my dearest big sis because of her engagement to mr ruffian ridzar. Tumpang gembira for her big day. Overall haritu sy penat betul sebab jadi driver ke sana sini sampai dah tak larat untuk jadi photographer. hehe.
By the way, last 20th december genap la saya berumur 23 tahun. I guess im a year older now. and a year wiser 
i hope. Thanks to all friends yang greet warm wishes on that special day. Luv u guys *heart smiles*
Oh oh tak lupe saya rase sangat gembira sebab pass Pharmacy Forensic Exam 2009 aritu. So, x perlu la bace buku law lagi sebab tak perlu repeat. Oh yeah!
Minggu ni last week kat CDR. Komen saya, mule-mule tu tak ok tapi last-last tu best la plak. So far banyak sangat benda dapat belajar sebab dulu time undergrads tak suke Oncology dan main hafal aje all the regimen and protocols tu. Skang ni dah keje haruslah belajar dan pahamkan *sigh* Hehe.
Eventhough all things went my way, tapi still rase something is missing..
My jantung manis.
rase gembire bile dapat berjumpe
Anyway, tajuk tu bunyinye cam kelakar je..
Weekend lepas tersangat lah bestnye sebab:
1. Saya dapat jumpa Jantung Manis
Wah wah hepi tak terkata rase macam boleh kena diabetic je. En Azhar sangat bermurah hati untuk menjadi teman ke mane-mane wedding yang perlu di attend eventhough saye tahu die tak suke tempat sesak penuh orang ramai. Walaupun die berusaha nak penuhkan hajat buah hatinye yang banyak demand tu, tapi die tetap tak boleh cover muke uncomfortable nye tu. Haha. Sorry dear.
2. Saya dapat jumpe Adini and En Aye
Terima kasih tak terhingga pada Dini sebab sanggup berikan tempat tidur nya untuk saye. Tak lupe time Dini belanja sebab dah dapat first pay. By the way thanks untuk housemate dini yang sangat nice- AM ngan Ili. You guys, rase seronok sangat bile kite bertiga dapat hangout and pegi tengok muvee kt KLCC. Tengok New Moon plak tu (im a fan of twilight saga). Credit to En Aye sebab blanje tiket wayang. Terima kasih daun keladi *wink*
3. Saya dapat jumpe Geng 401 and klasmate BSC Pharm
Hepi sebab cam buat small reunion kat Surya’s wedding. Surya hot giler in red dress aritu. Rase tak percaya semua dah nak kahwin kan? Best sangat sebab bile jumpe tu banyak je benda nak updates. Hepi tengok Alin and her BF. So sweet..
4. Saya dapat jumpe keluarga si Jantung Manis
Ni memang wajib kene pergi. The last time mase konvo, akak die siap tempah kek dengan wish “Dear Cik Sue,Happy Graduation Day”. Terharu okeh sebab walaupun belum jadi ahli family diorang dah di treat cam ni. Oh so terharu..Dahla time tu tak pegi pun sebab ayah tak sihat. Budak-budak comel tu pun asyik call tanye bile nak datang. So bile finally get to see them, rase puas hati. Heh *heart smiles*
Tapi time nak balik tu rase sedih sangat nak tinggalkan si Jantung Manis. Haish, bile la boleh jumpe lagi.. Papepun hope next time ade lagi chance nak berjalan-jalan. Jom.
Countdown
Cant believe today is Wednesday! I’ve been counting the days since the start of the week coz im so excited and looking forward for this weekend.
By the end of this week, Surya oficially will be Fitri’s and Im so happy for both of them.Note that Surya is the first to be Mrs among us 5 at 401.Haha..I havent got anything for their wedding gifts, but i’ll figured that out later.Kamikaze jer. *wink*
Really cant wait to meet my JANTUNG MANIS , and not to forget Dnie and Encik Aye. Flight tickets booked and i’ll be staying at dnie’s. Million gazillion thanks dear~~
Hope everything went well as planned. Daa~
Updates
It’s been like a month since my last entries..
Have been really busy with my last department IPD and now im doing my enforcement pharmacy for two weeks. It has been a nice experience doing the enforcement pharmacy as i could broadened my knowledge to the field that im not familiar with.
My first week have been good at the CPF, Kelantan. I’ve got the opportunity to see prosecution at the court, doing inspections at private clinics and inspection at the entry point (Rantau Panjang). Basically I like the part where I can go ‘jalan-jalan’ laa. Ngee. I also learn how to process exhibits and other stuff but the’ jalan2′ part is the most exciting for me. haha.
Today I will follow the CPF staff to do ‘Roadblock Bersepadu’ which involve CPF, Kastam and Imegresen and other Departments as well. Hope it doesnt rain heavily because im worry that i might get my ‘newly done hair’ wet. If so, there goes my RM 200 on a hair do. Arghh.
Looking forward for my jantung manis to come back this Wednesday..Miss him dearly. *wink*
p/s: Congratulations Dayo on her wedding this Raya Haji. May Allah bless U and hope U will forever be happy with your loved one *heart smiles*
DOWN
Things have not been going my way recently.
Work SUCKS, love SUCKS and life SUCKS.
It’s clear that being an adult is just not my thing. I hate it.
I just need a break and I miss my uni friends terribly.
Im looking forward for this upcoming convo holiday next week. Hope it will be great to let go off this misery. I HOPE.
6 days
How to start eh?
Ok ok. The story goes.. the senior PRP would be leaving HUSM this Oct. And the remaining PRP left is the 4 of us. Oh no.
Penatnye sebab kene cover the workload yang dulu boleh di delegate to all the senior PRP jugak. *sigh*
I’ve been working 6 days a week in 2 weeks row. Penatnye. Badan rasa sakit-sakit. *sobs*
Lagi2 jadual methadone dah keluar. My workload is gaining. Noo.
But the good news is my boss have given me the green light for my convo holiday. Best of all monday-thursday. And since friday is not a working day for me it means that i will enjoy a total 6 days of holiday.Yeayy!! Setelah sekian lama..
Aidilfitri 2009
Since malas nak tulis panjang-panjang, let’s just enjoy the pic jer. A picture worth a thousand words. Tu bak kate omputih la. So, layann..
aireen and i
tiga gadis
with my uncle
tiga jejaka (my cousins)
somebody is missing. me!
And the last pic is….
danny sayangku yang tengah merajuk
Haha. Ok lah. Before im out, im wishing all Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri. Ampun maaf dipinta sekiranya ada salah dan silap
Payday
I’ve got my first paycheck yesterday. I am most definitely happy. Now I know it’s not easy to earn ‘halal’ money. ‘Halal is one thing. ‘Berkat’ is another thing to seek.
Debts: PAID
Mom and Dad: Got their own ‘duit raya’. I couldn’t forget the look on my mom and dad’s face. Either shocked or surprised, i didn’t know which one of it is. Or maybe both. But I know they were happy. * heart smiles*
My little cousins: Soon will get their own ‘duit raya’.
My jantungmanis: Hmm, I should think of something to give him. As a symbol of appreciation towards him who had been supportive enough morally and financially. For always being there for me. What should I give him eh?
Myself: I dont even know what to get for myself. Funny isn’t it?
Oh BTW, today i’ve to work (weekend duty). *sigh*
Damn tired.
here we go again
Esok, akan bermula perjalanan aku di tempat baru. Next department: Satellite Pharmacy. This would be the last stop untuk aku for the 2 weeks -attach at each dept- orientation. Then lepas ni baru betul-betul post kat permanent department and fully responsible untuk all the actions.
So untuk esok, bakal bermula new experience, new face, new place. Hope it is ok. The last time kat OPD (Farmasi Pesakit Luar) was started off as unpleasant, tapi last-last tu gives me this satisfied feeling sebab dapat balajar banyak benda. Mase kat situ, memang la I make like tons of mistakes. Biase la. Bak kate omputih ” To err is human, to forgive is divine”. First-first tu rase bengapnye selalu buat salah. Tapi dah dekat dua minggu tu, proud to say dah semakin tabah menerima responsibility walaupun kadang-kadang masih bingung dengan apa yang patut dibuat. Yang penting, anggap je semua mistakes tu as a learning process. Betul kan?
Oh oh lupe. Minggu ni kene kerja weekend jadi haruslah prepare untuk ingat balik cara-cara wat TPN (Parenteral Nutrisi). Sabri (senior PRP) kata PRP selalu kene assign wat TPN untuk neonate. Di sini ingin berterima kasih pada Sabri, Kak Intan and Encik Roslan sebab banyak tolong aku semasa proses pembelajaran tu. Tak lupe to all the Pharmacist Assistant jugak.
And about the missing Alprazolam, sebenarnya tak hilang pun. Silap record je. Nasib baik. Phew. OPD kirenye paling challenging la so far compared to the TPN tu. Masih banyak perlu dipelajari dan ditingkatkan.
Routine harian kat OPD:
- Check and found Psychotropic and Dangerous Drugs whether tally or not. Kalau tak tally, panjang ceritanya. Nauzubillah.
- Screening. Kalau ade something ‘fishy’ call the doctor and confirmkan the issues.
- Answer phone menjawab soalan-soalan cepumas doktor.
- Tolong filling kalau keadaan tak terkawal. Patient kat sini 1300++ per day ok!
- Indent Psychotropic and Dangerous Drugs dari store.
- Dispense medication ngan layan karenah manusia yang berbagai ragam. Haruslah profesional dan bersabar. Hmm.
So pasti dapat bayangkan betapa busynya dan penatnya bekerja di OPD itu.
Oklah. Sekian membebel perkara membosankan ini. Haruslah siap sedia untuk tidur. Selamat malam semua~ Wish me luck for tomorrow!
Regret
Aku tak pernah kesal dengan keputusan yang aku buat. Tapi kali ni, keputusan terbesar yang mengubah hidup aku ni, aku rasa sangat menyesal.
Mungkin ada hikmah di sebaliknya.
Tapi yang jelas lately hidup aku tak happy, tak bahagia.
Bagaikan boneka disuruh itu dan ini. Mereka masih tidak puas hati. Apa lagi yang mereka mahu dari aku? Aku sudah penat berusaha membahagiakan hati mereka.
Berdosakah aku membenci?
Aku manusia. Hidup bernyawa berperasaan. Tak perlu diatur apa yang perlu atau tidak untuk aku lakukan kerana aku berhak ke atas hidup aku sendiri. Aku mahu bebas!
